What to think?

This year has been a roller coaster of emotions for me.  Some good, some bad.  I don't really know what God is trying to teach me, but I am trying to learn, grow, and change from what I have been going through.  I don't understand a lot of why things are happening the way they are, but I do know that God sees the big picture.  He knows what is best for us, and if I need to hit a few bumps in the road to smooth out my character, then I will accept the challenges, and grow of them.  I am nowhere near perfect.  I know I am full of sin.  I cannot fathom why God would care for me and love me, but I know He does.  He wants to use me as an ambassador for Christ. We have so many opportunities to tell others about Christ's saving grace.  We need to ask ourselves: Am I using the time I have here on Earth to bring others to Jesus?  Am I taking whatever circumstances I come across, and know that God is good, that He has a plan for me, and realize I need to trust Him no matter what?  Sometimes life can be hard.  Sometimes we don't know what to think, or why things are happening.  We need to remember that the world doesn't revolve around us, that there is a bigger purpose for us being here than what we can get out of life.  I know that God gives us certain circumstances, so we can use what we learn to help others. I truly believe that.  Even though I try to not dwell on myself, sometimes it can be hard.  This year, for me, has been very hard.  It's not over yet, either!  I don't quite know what to think about everything, but I know that God knows what He is doing, and that all I have to do is walk with Him.  I need to keep my focus pointed upward, and He will do the rest.  Ultimately, I need to let go of the things I can't control, and give it to God.  Just let it go . . .