Emotional Rollercoaster

This has certainly been a trying year for us.  There has been so many changes to our lives that if I wasn't such a flexible person, I think I would have pulled my hair out!  I wish I could say that we are on the other side of all the chaos, unfortunately we are still in the middle of it.  I know God uses circumstances to grow us and change us.  I just wish I knew how I am supposed to grow!  I know looking back it will all make sense, but how crazy this all is while we're going through it.  I am doing the bible study "Lies women believe and the truth that sets them free" and it is amazing!!  So many things I never thought of as "a big deal" really come into focus while doing this study.  It is teaching me how to see the truth in all things, and to not waste my thinking on something that is not beneficial.  I think it is helping me to endure during this time and to be patient and wait on the Lord.  I like to know what is going on, and it's hard to give that to God, but ultimately it's His decision what path our family takes, so I need to be willing to give that to Him.  He has provided so much for us so far, and things are happening that I never could have imagined would ever happen.  I know He will take care of us.  Most days are good, some days are bad but we try to plug away and just do what we're doing until He changes things.  I know we are not the only people trying unsuccessfully to sell a house, but it is hard when you're going through it.  I feel trapped like we can't move on.  I pray that we will get some answers soon, but even if we don't, I need to remember that God has a bigger plan.  I am so excited for our trip to OK.  It is a HUGE step of faith, but I know it will bring us closer together and closer to God.  God has given us so much for this trip, I know He is happy we are going.  He has provided the hotel, a cheap car rental so we don't waste wear and tear on our vehicles for such a long trip.  He has given us the money to go there and the peace that it is the right thing to do no matter what anyone else says.  I am really excited to see what happens next!!